This morning as I dragged myself out of bed at 9:30, after a long night full of sneezing, coughing, sore throat, maybe a bit of whining, achy muscles and a mild fever, I entered my family room to see two of my kids arguing. I stopped briefly with my whisper of a voice and told them I didn't feel well enough to deal with who had the remote control to the TV. Never mind the fact that all four of my kids were lounging on the couches. Later that morning when I reappeared, Mikenzie was cooking chicken, at 10:30 in the morning?? I didn't really care, I just wanted Tylenol, Ibuprofen and some cough drops to go with my Kleenex and misery.
As I laid back down in bed I pictured of one of the "perfect sisters" in my ward who most likely had her home humming with happy, well groomed children completing their chore charts with smiles on their faces, all while primary music was playing in the background ( and I can almost guarantee you, that this was in fact happening and it is just not an exaggeration-- they truly exist ). I laid in bed for a few minutes before I drifted off into yet another restless nap to help me overcome whatever illness I am battling and thought " I am really NOT the best mom, my kids should be working, cleaning, practicing piano... wait... I'm too sick for this guilt trip... " and into dream land I traveled.
Later today, when I finally arose with my ears ringing and throbbing from what I am assuming is a double ear infection ( aren't 42 year olds too old for that ? ), hacking all the way to the bathroom and finally out the bedroom door, I found... no... not a immaculate home filled with sunshine... but I did find that maybe I am not the worst mom either.
Mikenzie had readied herself for her job, which she had acquired on her own at 15. One check in the good mom box. I have raised an independent, hard working child.
Kyle had taken her to work so I could rest. One more, no two more check's in the good mom box. #1, I have a kind son who had concern for his mom and was #2, responsible enough to take his sister to work. Hmmm, not sooo bad I guess.
I then found Baylie, cleaning the kitchen. Only half a check in the good mom box, as she had ulterior motives for the cleaning. It is National Share A Smile Day and she was baking a cake in the form of a big smiley face. Not sure who gets a check in their box for that one, me for raising such a sweet little girl, or Heavenly Father for sending her to me. He must think I can do something right, so half a check to even it out to four checks. She had to hurry, as she was helping with hair and make-up in the school play. Voluntarism! Another check!
And then we have Brandon, who was arguing earlier with Baylie over the remote. He was off playing in a basketball game. Another check for keeping my children well rounded and physically fit? Kyle was there watching, supporting his brother. James was able to go as well. Maybe another check for all that?
Later today, Kyle suited up and went to work as well. Another check in my good mom column. He is a hard working kid, he just doesn't enjoy it as much. I think he would rather be here at any given moment on any given day :
So, a grand total of 7 checks in the good mom box for the day. I guess I can take that with a good pat on my own back. I think I can honestly say have raised some pretty decent kiddos. And I am NOT going to be a dutiful accountant at the end of today, subtracting from my good mom column the many things that I am sure I did wrong, wrong, wrong... nope, I'm just too sick for that guilt trip today.